Audience Alienation

She gave me a phone number
I’ll never use
So I could stay in the loop
But it was the day she took my place
It shouldn’t have happened that way
They were laughing on the other side
I was acting like everything was fine

Life was addicting and never filling
Always felt something was missing
This yellow thunder never goes away
I hate feeling morally gray

These aren’t chapters in a book
They’re movie scenes
You were invited where you shouldn’t be
I sleep in the uncomfortable seats
There are some things you shouldn’t see
But you can watch my life on a screen
I’ll laugh while you scream
Until the end credits start rolling

Left out of something
I don’t want to be part of
Who have I become
I’m trapped in the footlights
You always pass by
Because I can’t let go
Of everything I’ve ever known

My blood painted the curtains red
I like to forget that I’m not dead
Got lost when the secrets were caught
Drowning in my hourglass thoughts
Maybe one day I’ll leave my head
But today I think I’ll stay in bed