Unconditional Love

Unconditional Love
By:  
Joshua Jamal  
  
I come across a woman naturally/ the vibes are mutual and she makes me happy/ I decide she's the one I want to spend my life with for an eternity/only to find that I'm in a preptual loop that's challenging my integrity/
I'm pouring myself out to her/ trying to remedy the pains and discomforts that occur/dismissing the nay sayers and what ever nonsense I may have heard/ and yet I'm the one held in contempt/ an innocent/this is something I don't deserve/
The argument or alleged crime is quite weak/ but the "prosecuter" feels justified and that I'm responsible for getting this type of heat/
Week after week I'm proving my innocence/not knowing the cause or crime and yet I'm pushed back in a corner and silenced/physical contact?/ no/ this is a different type of violence/ one wrong move I'm emotionally shattered, paralyzed, depressed, hopeless/  
On the verge of self destruct/ a fate that frightens even the strongest of men/ because I  laid down my life for one I  called friend/ from friend to girlfriend from girlfriend to fiance from fiance to wife/ such pain is ensruciating/ because it feels like you're getting stabbed with a knife or better yet a sword/  
Because this pain penetrates my very core/ so frightened to even reopen my emotional door/ why because of the scar of one stabbing me before/    
I'm deemed the whore/the liar/ the cheat/ a man who can't be trusted/ an architect of deceit/upon retreat/ I strengthen the alleged claim so I must fight back/ why defend if there is nothing to defend/ should I just endure this attack/  
Maybe this is how Jesus felt/ for no one else/ was picked for the charge/ who wants to be depicted as a fugitive at large/  
I cry for justice/ because I feel that my innocence/ should be noticed/ because right now I'm feeling quite hopeless/ nevertheless/ I will endure this pain/ sure people will say this is quite insane/ because this could discredit me as a man and ruin my fame/ but my Lord went through that too/ so I guess we're the same/  
He went through what he went through out of love/ so I am doing the same thing/ so go ahead/ cut me/ beat me/ spit on me/ do your worst/ continue your onslaught until you know that I'm hurt/  
Continue your perspectives/after all this is something that I deserve/ I'll go through this and more if it means having you by my side/ because like my Lord/ for you I must be willing to die/one may say it doesn't pay to being the good guy/ but I say this woman doesn't know what Godly love is like/  
So with every "strike"/ I endure I cry in love/ and I pray she knows I love her/ and that the love my Lord gives me/ is the love that she deserves/