weak

spent over half my life being ‘strong’
just to be brought down by a man
who tells me I can’t ever stop

healing is learning strength comes from pain
but I can’t stand
that he sees me as weak

how much do I have to take
with a fucking smile on my face
before I can earn the label

I’m so fucking sick
of being ‘strong’
I’m so fucking tired

who the fuck does he think he is?
who the fuck do I think he is?
to take that shit

to let it eat at me
to let it degrade me
to let it devour me

fuck him
and fuck me
and fuck this

fuck being strong
fuck being weak
fuck everything

I’m so tired
and i feel
so fucking weak