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The insipid nature of a lesser poet.
There's softness to the edges
where battered bruises swell
stagnation wreaks of havoc
as bitterness shows it's tell
Fraught of curious cruelties
left strewn all laissez-faire
piercing blistered lashes
wielded sans a thought or care
Cloaked of cursed shadows
casting lines to widely catch
hooking hatred with barbed wire
smallness knowing it's outmatched
Bile sowing discord
becomes urgent breath to bate
sounding off in tempered tantrums
only ends in your own sealed fate
Speaking flowers twisted with poison
to appease something broken inside
is spitefulness beating a dead horse
a guilty hallmark with zero pride
Darkness isn't cover
from truth as bright as day
as woolen eyes slowly unravel
eventually hell will have it's say
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*Love me or hate me; it doesn't change reality or the facts themselves.
I have never lied, belittled or turned a blind eye to attacks meant to torment or hurt. I operate with respectful integrity and express that by being fair, forthright and with actions that reflect my words. I don't skirt polices or browbeat by bully pulpit.
I have only ever spoken out when standing up for myself, as I do now; accepting that doing so, might very well make me a bigger target. It's not an easy decision, being non-confrontational by nature, but one I made because it's ultimately the right thing to do. When you find yourself teetering on an edge, very reluctantly dealing with wicked meanness for no good reason, passive-aggressive cruelty, hateful spite, bullying and pettiness, all of which is apparently seen as not only being 'ok' but seemingly encouraged and rewarded— it forces your eyes to be opened wide with the truth and a deep realization to stand up for what you believe in- for what is right. That's what should be first and foremost. So, here I am, speaking up and out—loud.
Some believe traveling the high road and ignoring this type of immature behavior is the only way for one to properly respond. I did too, for the longest time but after doing that far longer than I should have without any improvements, a light bulb of illumination went off after being made aware of these latest attempts at cruelty; this time it was being called "a pissed off lessor poet, who needs to have my eyes opened, to see past my own nose and find out how stale my poetry has become." I'm a big girl and can take being bad mouthed. It's the nonstop nature of it that wears you down. I know it may appear to be a somewhat innocuous poke but it's the point of it all. I shouldn't have to be made to feel like shit or attacked for no reason, no one should. This passive aggressive pettiness was only meant to continue to stir the pot by causing harm, intimidation and hurt and that IS the very point. So with that final straw of a hurtful jab still resonating, I said enough is enough; no more. If anyone has a problem with me, too bad. I'm not going anywhere, so deal with it.
Knowing that this type of response might very well feed the trolls, giving them exactly what they want, I believe there's a bigger reward, which is the comfort and deep relief felt when (hopefully) seeing how much of an enormous spotlight will shine down on what so desperately needed to be dragged out of the dense, dark cesspool and disinfected by the sanitizing clarity of truth's sunlight.
Hypothetically, if one is brazen enough to once claim innocence of fault, blame or inappropriate action; only to later freely suborn and profit from similar/comparable actions done to another publicly on their behalf, than they'd not only be a bully themselves but they'd also be a hypocritical liar, too. And If there's anyone whose eyes would need opening, it would be theirs, along with any and all who might have supported or condoned said actions along the way.
The lack of awareness and blatant disregard in seeing and comprehending that we're all human beings with individual flaws and strengths is astounding and almost ironic. So, instead of hiding behind a falsified version of the truth, maybe first try being honest or perhaps engaging in an attempt to personify that of a decent human being by demonstrating some genuine kindness and compassion.
Karma is real justice; whatever hurtful awfulness one puts out into the universe can't be counterbalanced or glossed over with the smoke and mirrors of inauthenticity and will definitely come back to have you reap what you sow, in the end. Also, like the saying goes, people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones, especially when living in such a precariously constructed one of their own.
Published 8th Sep 2022
Author's Note
My wits end retort to the straw that broke the camel's back of my silence towards the use of gaslighting pure make believe and passive aggressive bullying.
*Having my say and making my peace.
*Having my say and making my peace.
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8th Sep 2022 7:57pm
Hey beautiful obviously someone or someone's have pushed you to far, I'm so sorry you are upset.
I hope you are ok and having your voice helps
Love and light
Ron x
I hope you are ok and having your voice helps
Love and light
Ron x
Anonymous
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I thought this was a place that we could come and get away from the pettiness of the world. A place where we could read and enjoy the thoughts of others. Vent frustrations and say what we wanted without judgment. I myself been a member more than once and changed my profile because of some issues hoping for a fresh start. I read, I post, I do not judge others if I don’t agree with their point of view I simply read someone’s that I enjoy. This place is not my reality it my place of escape. I am sorry that you are going through this because I have only seen kindness in your words.
Keith
Keith
8th Sep 2022 10:02pm
hello beautiful Blue I feel for your pain
I've been targeted before in days past
I'm in the dark about whoever is plaguing you
you have my support as well it's never nice to be treated like that...
hugs lovely one 💕
I've been targeted before in days past
I'm in the dark about whoever is plaguing you
you have my support as well it's never nice to be treated like that...
hugs lovely one 💕
8th Sep 2022 10:26pm
Susan, the people harassing you clearly must have delicate egos that they prop up by pathetic bullying of your clearly superb poetry. I feel for you and hope this place can be restored to the supportive and kind place poets like you have built. I treasure your empathy and stand by you in this battle. All too often women have been encouraged to be passive. I am so incredibly proud of you for taking a stand and so incredibly glad you are still here posting your fantastic poetry. I applaud you for your courage in this ongoing struggle not just for you but for the soul of this site.
XoXoXo
John
XoXoXo
John
8th Sep 2022 11:27pm
B,
The darkness is deep and impenetrable...
Just be a true poet and your true self, always...
And know that there is a force of divine justice...
(It is truly... Disappointing... That of which you speak... Which I know to be true...)
The darkness is deep and impenetrable...
Just be a true poet and your true self, always...
And know that there is a force of divine justice...
(It is truly... Disappointing... That of which you speak... Which I know to be true...)
9th Sep 2022 00:04am
When it times to move on you move on. I'm here if you need a shoulder to cry on or you need a friend to talk to. Keep on writing you strong beautiful smart sexy woman.
Love the fire and grit. I always use my poetry as an outlet. Can't yell and fight with people in my real life so it's away to release those emotions and move on. Should never apologize for having those feelings, friend.
Really great write though. It was as well put together as it was emotional. 😁
"Darkness isn't cover
from truth as bright as day
as woolen eyes slowly unravel"
No need to worry when fighting with truth and light.
Really great write though. It was as well put together as it was emotional. 😁
"Darkness isn't cover
from truth as bright as day
as woolen eyes slowly unravel"
No need to worry when fighting with truth and light.
9th Sep 2022 3:51am
I realize that the times I said for you to be the bigger person isn't working apparently.
And, myself being a fighter by nature, i also realize that I would not be able to follow that advice myself for long.
I'm sorry that you continue to have these kinds of issues with whoever it is. You should identify them here, even if it's a secret identity BS they're pulling. Let us all rally around you, and shun them (at least the them that they are hiding as).
They must obviously be extremely envious of you. Whether it's a lesser woman or lesser man, their pitiful nature is the same. They can't have your life, love, words, whatever. So they want to break it. It's age-old insecurity.
I think you should post their screen names. Call them out into the open.
Your post here is strong. I like what I see.
And, myself being a fighter by nature, i also realize that I would not be able to follow that advice myself for long.
I'm sorry that you continue to have these kinds of issues with whoever it is. You should identify them here, even if it's a secret identity BS they're pulling. Let us all rally around you, and shun them (at least the them that they are hiding as).
They must obviously be extremely envious of you. Whether it's a lesser woman or lesser man, their pitiful nature is the same. They can't have your life, love, words, whatever. So they want to break it. It's age-old insecurity.
I think you should post their screen names. Call them out into the open.
Your post here is strong. I like what I see.
9th Sep 2022 5:24am
True poetry is the conceptual bounce house domain of epiphany, and glazed by the vocabulary of superlatives.
Of course there will always be a misanthropic turd in the party punchbowl of humanity trying to be a buzzkill, but when I am composing my sonnets, I am immune to their pettiness. Rumi, Shakespeare, and so many other bards did not achieve their notoriety by being skillful whiners. I suspect the honorable Mr. Styxian is right in speculating that there is an envy motivation involved.
Meanwhile...a growing reading list under your latest poem testifies to the rightful love that folks have for you and your poems.
I've encountered poetry critics before and some are so finnicky about what qualifies as an actual poem, that the simple fact that no one actually OWNS poetry seems to escape them. Poetry is a vital nutrient for the literary aesthetes of the world, and no one has the authority to tell us how we should write. Has anybody ever encountered an actual poetry cop? No. Sure, some folks might think that they are but that only serves as a clue to the rest of us that they are delusional, and at that point, they are unable to escape my pity.
So sing out, sweet songbird, we are all ears for you!
Of course there will always be a misanthropic turd in the party punchbowl of humanity trying to be a buzzkill, but when I am composing my sonnets, I am immune to their pettiness. Rumi, Shakespeare, and so many other bards did not achieve their notoriety by being skillful whiners. I suspect the honorable Mr. Styxian is right in speculating that there is an envy motivation involved.
Meanwhile...a growing reading list under your latest poem testifies to the rightful love that folks have for you and your poems.
I've encountered poetry critics before and some are so finnicky about what qualifies as an actual poem, that the simple fact that no one actually OWNS poetry seems to escape them. Poetry is a vital nutrient for the literary aesthetes of the world, and no one has the authority to tell us how we should write. Has anybody ever encountered an actual poetry cop? No. Sure, some folks might think that they are but that only serves as a clue to the rest of us that they are delusional, and at that point, they are unable to escape my pity.
So sing out, sweet songbird, we are all ears for you!
9th Sep 2022 12:54pm
They called you a lessor poet? Who ever they are they should know that calling someone lessor is an attempt to put themselves above you in an imagined hierarchy. We are equals here, we express ourselves, no one is above anyone else. It's a weak mind that throws the word lessor around. They obvoiusly have insecurities they want to put on you. If they are insecure they shouldn't attack others to divert attention from their own inadequacies. Fuck them. keep doing what you are doing, people enjoy your poetry, I enjoy your peotry.
regards
James
regards
James
9th Sep 2022 8:20pm
Anonymous
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Anonymous
9th Sep 2022 10:21pm
Amazing poetess you are
Of whom I'm the biggest fan
You only live to love and support
Making no demands
Ardent motion of digital ink
Sets out the light of truth in force
Even if the guilty parties
Feel absolutely no remorse
For you are right
You are just
In your words
I do trust
Never hide your beauty
Sensuality, fury or sadness
Amongst this site littered with filth
Lies, manipulation and badness
You counter these indecents
You balance all the dread
You equalize the shit show
With all the words of yours I've read
Never stop,
Never quit,
You are beloved,
You got that good shit
Of whom I'm the biggest fan
You only live to love and support
Making no demands
Ardent motion of digital ink
Sets out the light of truth in force
Even if the guilty parties
Feel absolutely no remorse
For you are right
You are just
In your words
I do trust
Never hide your beauty
Sensuality, fury or sadness
Amongst this site littered with filth
Lies, manipulation and badness
You counter these indecents
You balance all the dread
You equalize the shit show
With all the words of yours I've read
Never stop,
Never quit,
You are beloved,
You got that good shit
9th Sep 2022 10:40pm
I would say that those of us who recognize and love your poetic abilities far outnumber the petty critics. One of the best ways to stop a bully is to stand up and expose them for what they are. Evil does not survive the light, and you are one of the brightest.
❣️❣️❣️
🙏
❣️❣️❣️
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10th Sep 2022 3:28am
Hi B:)
So sorry you are going through this. I've known bullies my whole life. They come in all
shapes and sizes. Some you can see coming clear as day and others are chameleons that
blend in and strike when they see fit.
The silver lining is how it can help you sharpen your pen. This piece you wrote is powerful.
Delivers the message so eloquently but at the same time has bite to it.
Good for you:)
I'm a firm believer in defending yourself.
No one should be a doormat.
So sorry you are going through this. I've known bullies my whole life. They come in all
shapes and sizes. Some you can see coming clear as day and others are chameleons that
blend in and strike when they see fit.
The silver lining is how it can help you sharpen your pen. This piece you wrote is powerful.
Delivers the message so eloquently but at the same time has bite to it.
Good for you:)
I'm a firm believer in defending yourself.
No one should be a doormat.
10th Sep 2022 2:48pm
Thank you all for your encouragement, support, advice and unconditional love.
My cup runneth over.
🌹 💙
My cup runneth over.
🌹 💙
11th Sep 2022 4:25am
I just read your poem and everything you wrote afterwards....you are a courageous person and talented in the utmost.
So amazing to read this....really is.
So amazing to read this....really is.
13th Sep 2022 6:13am
Bluevelvet,
Though u ah cussed no one out upon this ah one, it was so ah touching. Whoever u are ah talking too, if they read or have ah read it, they'd probably be ah crying writing ah down what to say to u and saying it at the ah same ah time. This piece as an ah whole was A+ paper research paper eye catching, though, it was not a college study paper at all. He's out! Who? Sandals! 👍👁️🤎🤍💎🤍🌷💋🍑🌈👅🍑🍺🍻🥂🍹🥃🍜🥦🌽
Though u ah cussed no one out upon this ah one, it was so ah touching. Whoever u are ah talking too, if they read or have ah read it, they'd probably be ah crying writing ah down what to say to u and saying it at the ah same ah time. This piece as an ah whole was A+ paper research paper eye catching, though, it was not a college study paper at all. He's out! Who? Sandals! 👍👁️🤎🤍💎🤍🌷💋🍑🌈👅🍑🍺🍻🥂🍹🥃🍜🥦🌽
13th Sep 2022 7:00am
Birchel, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and solidarity with me. I know it wasn't the easiest read nor was it the easiest write, so I'm understanding and sensitive to that, not to mention very grateful.
I genuinely appreciate your voice and the kind, caring energy you always bring along with you. It means a lot to me that you stopped by and I don't (and would never) take those selfless acts of kindness for granted.
You're a gem 💎
Please take care of yourself
🌹 💙
-B
✲ﾟ｡.(✿╹◡╹)ﾉ☆.｡₀:*ﾟ✲ﾟ*:₀｡
I genuinely appreciate your voice and the kind, caring energy you always bring along with you. It means a lot to me that you stopped by and I don't (and would never) take those selfless acts of kindness for granted.
You're a gem 💎
Please take care of yourself
🌹 💙
-B
✲ﾟ｡.(✿╹◡╹)ﾉ☆.｡₀:*ﾟ✲ﾟ*:₀｡
13th Sep 2022 11:30pm
23rd Sep 2022 5:28pm
Dear Blue,
I'm so sorry you had to experience this cyberbullying when it's obvious you are admired by so many here. It's sad that to this day, trolls are constantly coming out to spread their sad pathetic lives so at to bring others down. Yes, taking the high road is best but as you said, enough is enough.
Your work has shined on this site since you arrived, your style is unique and always honest. And judging by the comments, likes and RLs, you have many supporters here who probably agree with me, you're one of the best.
W
I'm so sorry you had to experience this cyberbullying when it's obvious you are admired by so many here. It's sad that to this day, trolls are constantly coming out to spread their sad pathetic lives so at to bring others down. Yes, taking the high road is best but as you said, enough is enough.
Your work has shined on this site since you arrived, your style is unique and always honest. And judging by the comments, likes and RLs, you have many supporters here who probably agree with me, you're one of the best.
W
Thanks for the solidarity, Walter.
It's difficult to be attacked, lied about then made out be a villain. I think that it tends to be forgotten that we as individuals aren't the center of the universe. We all have things going on in our private lives that we need an escape from. DUP used to be my harbor for that. It's a shame that vanity and narcissism are more important than kindness understanding or compassion. There's no monopoly on personal hardships or life's sad miseries. I choose to not discuss my deep ongoing IRL issues here. I keep some of that/them away from DUP because that's how I prefer to operate. I don't need sympathy or thoughts and prayers. I'm here to improve my writing and to help relieve my anger, pain, confusion and learn how to prop up my confidence and understanding of humanity...
I hope going forward, I'm able to do that... in peace.
Again, thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. It's extremely meaningful and reinforcing to my personal DUP journey.
Much love and respect,
🌹 💙
B
It's difficult to be attacked, lied about then made out be a villain. I think that it tends to be forgotten that we as individuals aren't the center of the universe. We all have things going on in our private lives that we need an escape from. DUP used to be my harbor for that. It's a shame that vanity and narcissism are more important than kindness understanding or compassion. There's no monopoly on personal hardships or life's sad miseries. I choose to not discuss my deep ongoing IRL issues here. I keep some of that/them away from DUP because that's how I prefer to operate. I don't need sympathy or thoughts and prayers. I'm here to improve my writing and to help relieve my anger, pain, confusion and learn how to prop up my confidence and understanding of humanity...
I hope going forward, I'm able to do that... in peace.
Again, thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. It's extremely meaningful and reinforcing to my personal DUP journey.
Much love and respect,
🌹 💙
B
13th Dec 2022 10:09pm
13th Dec 2022 11:14pm
I appreciate the read and your thoughts. It means a lot to me.
Thank you for taking the time.
-💙
Thank you for taking the time.
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