Weight of the world

I painted a door frame
and realised that the walls looked drab.
Cursing my lack of attention,
I added painting to my to-do list.

Fed up with horrible news stories,
I blamed the media (and mankind)
and decided to avoid them all.

Studying became more difficult.
Attributing this to a recent lack of lessons,
I attempted to work harder.

Unduly annoyed online,
I blamed other people's negativity
before liberally applying the Snooze button.

Upset about returning to work,
I grumbled about contracts and self employment.
I applied for another job, unsuccessfully.

Having lost interest in attending Band,
I decided it didn't work with my schedule
and considered dropping out.

My world became very small.
You probably saw what was coming before I did...

It turns out that the problem is me.
Guess who is going to fix it?