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Obsession

Typing.
Smiling.
Writing.
Knowing.
Hating.
Hacking.
Stealing.
Reading.
Deleting.
Self-loathing.

You are nothing.
But still hold something.
The truth behind every lie.
The answer to every question.
The knife to every scar.

You are the obession.
You did this to me.
Trapping me in this state of mind.
Liar.
Heartbreaker.
Liar.
Life Ruiner.
Liar.
Suicide Influencer.

You destroyed me.
And here I am still reading your life in poetry.
Still hearing what you have to say.
Still trying to put the pieces of the puzzle together.
And wondering how I could give you so much.
And all you could do was TAKE?
Still breaking down crying,
Because of the things you say about me.
Still throwing myself into traffic,
because you're slowly killing me.

You are an obesession.
I love you.
I hate you.
I want you back.
I want you to die.
I want answers, reasons.
I want to know why you lied.
When I did nothing but love you.
I GAVE you EVERYTHING.

Went against EVERYTHING.
And you repayed me.
Like this.
Making me...
Breaking...
Lying to me...
Making a fool of me...
Destroying me...

And love, you created me.