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Pillow Talk

Here I am another night and I'm wide awake
Longing to correct what I now consider a fatal mistake
How could I ever do anything to jeopardize your love
One of the few gifts that I've received from up above

So I'ld rather lie here and let my emotions go
Here in the dark where no one will ever know
Suddenly remembering how I hurt you so
Brings another shudder and the tears start to flow

First I cried because I had the nerve to ask
To come into your life without revealing behind my mask
Things that I thought were secret to me
A sly smile with a scent of honesty, but sprinkled with treachery

I knew that you concealed a mask of your own
Before I knew it "love" was the only one shown
Finally relenting letting me into your life
Delivering the rewardsof my turmoil and strife

Secondly I cried because I swore to uphold my end
To supply you with unlimited love and caring, your friend
Was it me hiding behind the mask or it hiding behind me
Finally having everything I could want and need given for free

But somewhere along the lines I forgot my part
And now I'm sleeping on the wrong side to warm your spot
I imagined sooner or later I had to get caught
But it was my instincts I should've fought

Here in the dark staring into outer space
Trying to picture you with a smile on your face
Only one image come forth, that's of you crying
While I kick myself for not trying

The recollection of each argument blisters my heart
My attitude towards the situation each time I got caught
Proclaiming my innocence, declaring everyone else a liar
The whole world hates me, and against me, they conspired

Declaring my love for you, once again
For you to think that I could be guilty is insane
Seeing victory in your confused expression
Whether this is finished is no longer a question

Yes, I'm back in control of our situation
Because along with your love goes dedication
I salute whatever force came between us
For your sanity i now realize that it was a must

You see finally, I cried because you're gone
But I know I must leave you alone
There's no better way to show my love
Even though my core feels a shove

I now realize what I had in you
Because only true love is as pure
Excuse me this pillow is wet
I'm sorry you know the feeling, how could I forget

I see you lying here to many nights
Shedding the tears of loneliness and fright
Not the fright of physical violence, but of you mind's insight
On a situation that was always wrong, but still seemed right

While lying here in the dark
Your mind, my greatest enemy, comes out like a shark
Soon your love's fire looses it's spark
And you stop listening for approaching cars and the dogs bark

I find comfort in not wondering why
All your heart was given I can't deny
I swear upon my existence you tried
Even though at times you knew lied

I'm truly sorry for the time that you wasted
I knew I was right for you, but couldn't face it
It hurts me to think where you could be
If I hadn't stepped between you and destiny

It would be easy for me to obscure the actual facts
Luckily lying in your spot partially shield me from the impact
Without having to bear the full weight, my mind is clear
And I realize that I've earned every last tear
Written by I_IS_ME
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