Succumbing

While withdrawing in to self, seeking knowledge of self
I'm dam near at my core and I can't find anything left
All that I have found has been torment and doom
I moved myself aside trying to make room

If Misery loves company, then what is wrong with me wanting to share
Is it wrong to want, or need others in this darkened lair
All groping around in a room without sound or light
The floor falling away, you're trying to take your first flight

We all know that all birds can't make it safely out of the nest
There is a long fall to my death if I fail this test
There wont be any rescue team, or any life lines thrown
Being just a fledgling, how can I be reaping the seeds that I've sown

I ask myself over and over, was there darkness in the seed that spawned me
Maybe I'm of darkness only to be darkness, trying to be all that I can be
Am I to hit my core and find that it's just another layer with more intensity
The lip that I mistook for a cliff,has me hanging by fingertip, mentally

My bottom has no bottom, my boundaries has no boundary
I am in limbo, a spirit without will, a soulless entity
It seems only the darkness draws me, makes me wonder if I ever saw true light
Maybe I only saw different shades of dark, honestly mistaken for right

Whatever this is I have got to get my bearings
Cats are circling the tree with no plans of sharing
With nothing but belief and strength, I battled to balance myself
After accepting the darkness, I entered space with my very first steps