Burden

 
Rusting needles chased by barbed wire through putrid lips.

For all that is said was not but destruction and cancer.

Hooks to remove the center of fears and idiotic thoughts.

For all that has been birthed here is not but trauma and pain.

Abandonment, left to feed the vultures, cast away.

For I am but a burden, tethered to crackling limbs.

Desired not, for my soul or my heart.

Desired not, for loyalty and truth.

Desired not, for my love and vulnerability.

Noticed only as a failed attempt, a torn chapter from the book.

Feelings of the darkness are growing closer, I can feel it's caress on my broken being.

My closest friend, my worst enemy.

You have been there since the beginning, surely you will hold me in the end.

Nothing lasts that comes too close, for I am toxic in their presence.

Unable to speak, breathe or live without total annihilation.

No one can know my pain, no one can know my fears... keep them inside, it's the only way to remain in your presence.