Life as a Side Character

I’m broken but I can’t explain
I’m still not in the right place
I’m tired of the things that I think
Faking happy gives me headaches
I make too many mistakes
I really don’t deserve anything

I’ve given up
I’ll never be enough
For someone to love

I stay in and hide
From the party outside
To avoid looking strangers in the eyes
I know it probably isn’t right
But nobody ever tries to find me
I guess alone is where I’m meant to be

It’s happening again
The same way it did back then
I’ll try but I won’t forget
I like having something to miss
I knew it would come to this
Everybody leaves in the end

They made my ears bleed
I wish I didn’t remember
How I think it used to be
In my head I can live in my dreams
Where no one ever leaves
I really don’t want anyone to find me