Mental Dis-Ease

Running as fast as I can
through the tangled under brush
of my mind.

I am tired...and
I have run out of time
Now the second hand of my life unwinds
Now the bell that tolls my future ..chimes

Who will come to slay my dragons now
That I have all but given up.
As I sigh...and try to find
my sword of truth
In this rubble filled ruin called
My soul... like a golden chalis
filled with holes...
I realize I was only beautiful
from a distance...because
Up close If you look into my eyes
There is a beast...that lives inside
Always devouring the root of me
Leaving me restless...and hungry.
Leaving me to wrestle with the enemy
Which is the Inner me.

Now I am lonely...
Striving to find a way to climb
out of this pit ...of maddening thoughts
and crazy shit
One last time.
Im striving to find...
whats left of my mind
In this broken down place

I am striving to find remnants
of me...because I dont
even recognize my face
I ask humbly if the light
will find me...yet I am too afraid
that it just might blind me

Instead I have taken up with the shadows
Of my inner night...that
whisper dillusions...and promote
mass confusion...and yet I know
the pain is only an illusion
But I still cant break away
So I will save my prayers
because it feels like no care cares
Maybe I will be saved...another day.