Him

He's probably decided to leave me alone
Even if its for my good though
Which is fair enough
Even if my heart is split in half

And he handled it with care and wasnt rough
I still feel like a used cloth
After all what is a heart?
More like a painful blood clot
So painful it makes you blackout

I still pretend he is mine to keep
Its not easy to let go of something so deep
And now im thinking maybe
It wasnt meant to be
But deep down i wanted it to be

Love is not something you can force on
And love isnt for anyone
And love cant be found anywhere
Still nothing i had done mattered
As payback i got murdered

I feel like a moron
I dont know which drug should i be on
Something to numb the lies
That i have been told on
Something to help me hold on

My soul is golden
I cant let you step
I dont care about your spell
Simple magic doesnt last

I dont wanna look at the fucked up past
You wont fuck me up again
Your not worth the time to spend
At the end youre not even my friend
To me your dead instead
Dont show up and i wont either
I dont wanna look at you
And you shouldnt do either.