love letters

 
you're hurting me
I am that broken
you know it to be true

lacing my corset of pain tighter
I say I love you and mean it
but it doesn't matter, does it?
my ache in scarlet speaks of the touch I will never feel

I bear the scars of loyalty
my soul counted for knows you intimately
you are not a man that lets women close
you pull in so deep to caress, to fuck
then cut me open to see what I'm made of
it's honesty she is reserved for you

I have felt you near me
so near your presence invades my senses
do you know I was writing to you and I didn't know it?
did you get my love letters?
did I unknowingly cut you with my truth?

you're a part of me
but you like god will never invite me in your house
I am cursed to never be loved enough