Freudian Slip

 
the sun burn too bright for me today
the sky too blue
it assaulted me with it's loveliness
on a day I felt so broken

I awoke my head blaring
and my body aching
it hurt to just be
too much whiskey and thoughts I can't control

last night everything was amber and warm on the edges
and it made sense to be this foolish
today was all angles and hard edges
abusing my faith, blunt force trauma

a ligature around my neck
choking my lusts
and damning my body
for responding when the soul of me cry foul

I was lost in the black of my mood
I don't care tumbling carelessly from my lips
I don't give a fuck came spilling from my lies
it would be my alibi
and I would stick to it

I love too hard
it is relentless this feeling
I casually aroused the notion

now it's eating at me
silly, girl don't you know trix are for kids