Out Goes My Heart

I didn’t cry
But
I couldn’t pry myself
Out of bed this morning
Late to work
Etc.
Because last night
This special female
I thought I finally found
Torn my heart out
But politely said
I want to go back home
To my man
I thought
Was her ex
But now I see
I definitely
Read her wrong
She….
I wouldn’t say used
But
She disguised herself
As the one for me
A great listener
A mental coach
Now I see
A pro mental gamer
Playing tricks with men minds
Had me stepping out
Of my comfort zone
Trying new things
I never thought
In a million years
I would do
But now she has
Sky dived
Out of my life
Makes me wonder
She just played with my emotions
To have a partner
That she claimed
She loved me
Wanted to have my baby
Talked me into
Riding the tallest roller coasters
Jumping out of the sky
At thirteen thousand feet
Taking trips on airplanes
All of this
That her man
I thought was her
Ex
Is afraid to do
Now
That she got her thrills
She’s lying back in his arms
Tonight
While I write this
Sad poem
Slowly
Putting my heart
Back in its place
But I will
Never Give Up
But I will take my time
Finding the next
Because
I can’t afford to be late
To work
Because of a woman
That has never asked
To pay my bills