Misunderstanding

Your actions are the worst. And this really makes me burst.
You didn't even give me attention. You took all the protection.
Aside, I am running on a hill of flowers. But why can't I see the numbers?

I became trouble,molded in your hand.
 But now my head is full of hate. Why didn't you let me breathe?
 I suffocated from the years of trauma.

You tell me not to cause drama.
 i miss the days I was happy. Now my clothes are stained with black paint.
I'm not functioning,so I pretend. Now the music is playing in reverse.

Why am I in this universe? All I did was feel pain. Now my life is plain.