the "good boy"....

          
         
         
         
    against the grain, is how I've pretty much always been-even before I realized it; especially with time and the first hand experiences(which isn't shit.... because I was literally "innocent")    
         
         
  I  wish I would've gotten in"trouble" back then; though most of my upbringing has been to be raised as a young "innocent" "gentleman"....apart from the fact I was submerged in oblivion....          
         
         
and when my father would share his "stories" of the "good times" he's had before, during, and after his army days- I'd wonder just how much of it was exaggerated....          
         
         
my mother always had us/me on a tight leash, thankfully-yet at that "certain age" I was oblivious on how to effectively socially interact and didn't realize how much I was like Tom cruise in that "edge of tomorrow" movie....(still kind of feel that way)