Sides of Myself

Light and dark sides of a doubloon,
From lunar rock, I am hewn,
Sereph and demon, dance,
And throughout they prance
In heart and soul,
Myself, whole,
Just me,
Free.
Angles
In cycles,
Sides trilobal,
They intermingle,
Identity, welcome,
Gender, romanticism,
Sexuality, each atom,
Vibrating, and so alive,
I've found for what I've searched,
That that was untouched,
That was unknown,
My backbone,
Now shown,
Known.
Betwixt
Lady fixed,
And gentleman,
Warm, like morning sun.
Both he and she have beauty,
The inside, more than their body.
Gefjun, my virgin patron,
Of my secret garden,
Pure, serene, pristine,
Untamed, unseen,
Mine only,
Holy,
Me,
Wholly
My being,
I'd been seeing
Through blue tinted glass,
Anxiety, alas,
Would tear my soul asunder,
Now I roll the dice like thunder,
Take a gamble here and there,
But sometimes still beware,
Of dangers here,
Fearful
Null,
Leery
As need be,
For protection,
Less fear projection
At the green screen of life,
Where uncertainty is rife,
Rife as undiscovered sealife.
Life, and myself, dark matter,
Myself I won't flatter,
Won't sugar coat,
Or cutthroat
Uncouth,
Truth.
No lies,
For your eyes,
Tactful account
I will stand my ground,
And tell all, who I am,
I am more than mere flimflam,
Complexity is what I am.
Good and bad, known and learning,
Seeing, feeling, loving,
Thinking, and telling,
Spilling my guts,
Am I nuts?
I'm not,
Fraught.
Love
A shove
Into trust
Is what I must,
That is hard to do,
It is true, I love you,
And I always have, and will,
And for you, I will climb that hill.
I was me, now I'm you too,
Heart beats for me, and you,
You make my soul glad,
Yes you do, Brad,
I said it,
Mean it,
Lit
Flaming,
And beating,
My heartbeat drum,
Before, just for me,
But now for great beauty,
My reason to exist here,
My reason to never leave here.
I don't care about my back,
My mobility's lack,
I grow for myself,
And for your self,
To be me,
Is free,
See?
Ultra
Vanilla
Not from trauma,
Not to get over,
It is me, do you see?
It is who I'm proud to be,
Seldom and so mild-sexy,
Nothing remotely crazy,
Will ever turn me on,
Will just make me run,
Doesn't seem fun,
I love love,
Above
Sex,
Breaknecks
Existence
Fleeting thoughts dance
Through my brain, light speed,
And seldom, sloth they heed,
A.D.H.D exhausts
Time and energy the costs,
For my ever-expanding mind,
Like the depths of space, I find,
Universe mystery,
And not history,
We can't know all,
Would appall,
Our way,
Slay.
The past,
Future fast,
Growing up now,
Tried to before now,
Harsh, and unforgiving,
T'was life and world seeming,
But still my heart keeps beating,
Guided by love, and what I've lost,
Helping to melt my heart's frost,
Brad, and my family,
Locked, they are the key,
To let walls down,
Kill my frown,
Heartbreak,
Brake.
With grace,
I'm grey-ace,
I'm shy, and bi,
And both binary,
Not neutral, I be,
Gendered both she and he,
Girlfriend and boyfriend, I'll be,
With love for you, and myself, see?
Five points on a pentacle,
Elements, magickal,
Pagan spectacle,
Norse, Egyptian,
Celtic, sun,
Fun.
Truly,
I am me,
With many sides,
As my many guides,
Laughter, and love of me,
That is all that I do see,
About myself, well and truly.