addiction to an idea/ideal

  
 
   
   
        addiction to an idea; an idea of a person, place, or thing; it's fair to say, that "dreams" and ideas are nearly impossible/or very difficult to obtain in what we call this "physical plane"....  
   
   
     especially without making a mess of things....  
imagining up possibilities and what they'd bring.... this existence is very strange, and a strain; if only it were possible to bypass pain....  
   
   
    pain is certain; pain runs rapid, through both the mental and physical aspects; and when i personally wake up in the morning, can't keep myself from asking-"why must this happen?"  
          
   
   this "rat race", and how it's easy for strings to prickle, tickle, and pickle ones' brain; whether or not ones' against the grain; all brains aren't "wired" the same....dare i say, or even "wired" for this "life game"(this is how i feel about myself)  
   
   
  me personally; I'm going through motions-winging this thing-wishing I had literal wings to fly from out of this cycle of frustration and pain....