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Need, Want, and Desire
Need, Want, and Desire
For years
I thought
I needed
Her,
But her absence
And abandoning
Behaviors
Eventually
Taught me
Through
Loneliness
That
I really
Didn't
Need her
At all.
I thought
Then
That
I wanted
Her,
But
What good
Was that
When she
Hardly knew
That I
Was alive?
Then
I discovered,
I had
Desired her,
To be near,
To know,
To be
Within
The orbit
Of her being,
And she
Was like
The moon,
A bright
And brilliant
Beacon
In the star flung
Night,
Nothing
To be owned,
But rather
Another thing
Shared
By a hundred
Other eyes.
Not mine
At all.
A shadow
Making angel.
For years
I thought
I needed
Her,
But her absence
And abandoning
Behaviors
Eventually
Taught me
Through
Loneliness
That
I really
Didn't
Need her
At all.
I thought
Then
That
I wanted
Her,
But
What good
Was that
When she
Hardly knew
That I
Was alive?
Then
I discovered,
I had
Desired her,
To be near,
To know,
To be
Within
The orbit
Of her being,
And she
Was like
The moon,
A bright
And brilliant
Beacon
In the star flung
Night,
Nothing
To be owned,
But rather
Another thing
Shared
By a hundred
Other eyes.
Not mine
At all.
A shadow
Making angel.
Author's Note
Love teaches us to expect nothing.
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Re. Need, Want, and Desire
18th May 2022 3:25am
Turtle, my man, you have really streamlined your shit. This is elegant, and haunting. I can feel resignation, and resignation is a deep bowl of pudding.
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Re: Re. Need, Want, and Desire
18th May 2022 4:57am
It's you, Boss Betty. Your insights were not wasted. Holding my feet to the fire was the best thing you could've done.
I'm ever so grateful.
I hope you've been blasting away in your own fire circles.
I'm ever so grateful.
I hope you've been blasting away in your own fire circles.
Re. Need, Want, and Desire
Such awareness and insightful brevity....(I hope the pain you penned didn't linger for you any longer than you needed)
I think perhaps my thoughts teeter here; lessons are hard pills sometimes, other times they really can serve one well. Maybe I'm filled with a bit too much hopeful fairy dust but I like to believe that even though a felt inevitable IS more than likely an outcome, there's also a slim chance the exception to the rule, might be too...
Too romantic? probably... lol 😏🙄.. curse that side of me!! (I tease)
The pinpoint emotional precision in your work is something I myself need to work on and strive towards when writing certain pieces of my own.
I realize that my stream of consciousness 'jumbles' can sometimes be messy and hard for others to follow.....
Much adored poem, RT
and very much appreciated food for thought.
🌹 - 💙
B
I think perhaps my thoughts teeter here; lessons are hard pills sometimes, other times they really can serve one well. Maybe I'm filled with a bit too much hopeful fairy dust but I like to believe that even though a felt inevitable IS more than likely an outcome, there's also a slim chance the exception to the rule, might be too...
Too romantic? probably... lol 😏🙄.. curse that side of me!! (I tease)
The pinpoint emotional precision in your work is something I myself need to work on and strive towards when writing certain pieces of my own.
I realize that my stream of consciousness 'jumbles' can sometimes be messy and hard for others to follow.....
Much adored poem, RT
and very much appreciated food for thought.
🌹 - 💙
B
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Re: Re. Need, Want, and Desire
18th May 2022 5:07am
I really appreciate that. Owning my own insecurities and unassertiveness has felt like being sandblasted. I'm learning to pick my battles carefully, and go all in when I commit.
I can only change myself. I'm not a fixer upper and neither is anyone else. I listen more and believe people faster when they show me who they are.
I'm an idiot, but I'm not stupid.
You can only die once....you go ahead and be romantic. I'd rather be in pain than feel nothing at all.
I can only change myself. I'm not a fixer upper and neither is anyone else. I listen more and believe people faster when they show me who they are.
I'm an idiot, but I'm not stupid.
You can only die once....you go ahead and be romantic. I'd rather be in pain than feel nothing at all.
Re: Re. Need, Want, and Desire
Awww... (hugs)...
* brushes a little fairy dust your way....
(couldn't resist)
x
(you're more than welcome, btw)
* brushes a little fairy dust your way....
(couldn't resist)
x
(you're more than welcome, btw)
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Re: Re. Need, Want, and Desire
18th May 2022 5:52am
Re. Need, Want, and Desire
19th May 2022 2:28am
I relate to this write. Enjoyed… especially this:
“To be near,
To know,
To be
Within
The orbit
Of her being,
And she
Was like
The moon,
A bright
And brilliant
Beacon
In the star flung
Night,”
“To be near,
To know,
To be
Within
The orbit
Of her being,
And she
Was like
The moon,
A bright
And brilliant
Beacon
In the star flung
Night,”
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Re: Re. Need, Want, and Desire
19th May 2022 4:17am
Human beings are the most insidious of animals, uncultivated and oblique, and opulent with a spoonful of stickiness. Can't stand them and life is barely worth the trouble without them.
Re: Re. Need, Want, and Desire
I always say humans are the most biased creatures on the planet. Usually in reference to the fact that the Bible has been rewritten by more than fourty authors over an 1800 year span. Not trying to get into that debate, but it’s my the best example of my point…
I love how you ended your reply. The entire response is a poem about life if you ask me…
Cheers…
I love how you ended your reply. The entire response is a poem about life if you ask me…
Cheers…
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Re: Re. Need, Want, and Desire
Yes. If I need, then I'm looking for answers from outside myself, otherness. If I want, I'm stating that I lack.
But, desire.....my desire belongs to me. I'm the captain of that ship. Desires are fully self-directed.
Buddhism has an internal issue with desire, which is seen as the foundation for suffering, but in our developing the middle way, it is our desire for the enlightenment of all beings, the advancement of detached awareness, that drags us also into no longer being annoyed with anything. The practice of the perfection of all things is in our radical acceptance of what is as it is in the perspective of humility and mutual understanding.
It's just life... living and let live. Exactly.
But, desire.....my desire belongs to me. I'm the captain of that ship. Desires are fully self-directed.
Buddhism has an internal issue with desire, which is seen as the foundation for suffering, but in our developing the middle way, it is our desire for the enlightenment of all beings, the advancement of detached awareness, that drags us also into no longer being annoyed with anything. The practice of the perfection of all things is in our radical acceptance of what is as it is in the perspective of humility and mutual understanding.
It's just life... living and let live. Exactly.
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1st Jun 2022 2:40am
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