Reminiscing On The Past

Sometimes I come back to this island
And reminisce on the past
Walking through the forest I once called home
I used to take strolls here-much like this-
Amidst all the beautiful plants and tall trees
Hearing the sounds of creatures scurrying out of sight
I’m reminded of all I’ve left behind
A small part of me wonders
What would my life be like if I stayed on this island?

I walk on, deeper into the forest

And I take in my surroundings
A mix of light and dark greens  
Vines strewn everywhere
A slight breeze makes the whole forest sing
This place makes me calm and serene
It’s easy to let my mind wander
Drifting from one thing to the next
Pondering my life
And all the hardships I’ve endured

Sometimes I think of my family

And how we grew apart
They all left me alone on this island
I don’t like to admit it but that hurt
Being unwanted by all
Surrounded by my own thoughts
Knowing those who came, always wanted something
Never seeing eye to eye
It was always a challenge to talk with any of them
A challenge I never won-nor cared to win-

No one understands lose the way I do

One moment you are happy and life is good      
The next you’re life shatters into a million little pieces
No hope of picking them all back up
Everything you once loved becomes a reminder
Everything you say and do is different
Even the little things no one realizes
Until you have to refer to your own parent in the past tense
That is something no one prepares you for
And not many my age can comprehend

Sometimes I get angry

I know I cannot change anything or anyone
But I hate the way the Gods live
That’s why I am no longer one of them
So full of themselves and their power
Always abusing it
Playing games with everything else in this world
Just for their own amusement
I get angry that I couldn’t make any of them listen
That’s one thing mortals do well

Living my life hasn’t been easy

I feel like all my emotions tear me apart
Losing your whole world makes you fragile
Always on the edge
Trying to stay focused
All while no one knows how much you hurt
All the pain inside in so many forms
Angry at the world for taking who you love away
Sadness knowing you can’t make any more memories with them
Frustration towards everyone in your family who act like nothing even happened

I reach the end of the forest

I walk to the beach and look out at the vast ocean
It’s easy to dwell on the past
I have to remember to look towards the future sometimes
I do not know what lies ahead
But I know I can get through anything
I have the scars to prove it
Reminiscing on my past lets me feel my emotions
Then let them go
If only a little at a time