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No one knew
the real me
under the surface
what they couldn't see

I'd put on an act
fake a smile
just to be left alone
once in a while

Inside i was dying
ripping apart
like someone was stabbing
a knife through my heart

No one knew
I wanted my life to end
no one cared
so I'd continue to pretend

I couldn't focuse
being someone I'm not
I'd  fake laugh and joke
and smile a lot

Coming home crying
became a daily ruitine
so I decided to try that
terrible thing

I'd keep it a secret
but it became too addicting
that blade to my skin
seeing the blood dripping

I'd do it again
it became very gory
with each new scar
comes a whole new story

So I decided I'd just
end it for good
I mean why not
do something I should

The plan didn't work
I was caught in the act
so many pills
surprised life's still intact

I'm so glad now
I'm still here to day
I lost my best friend
but there's more people to thank

So I appreciate those
who let me be me
and who took me in
during my times of need

I took life for granted
but it's a wonderful thing
a time to grow
laugh play and sing

Just take it from me
life one day will perish
don't let it be now
for it's something to cherish