Never Surrendering to the Hardships I Face

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Hanging in the door
Using flashlights
To walk through my house
Yes
I’ve experienced this before
So cold
Using sleeping bags
Covered with a blanket
Laying in a cold bed
Shivering myself to sleep
Hoping to wake up
From a bad dream
The ups and downs
I’m not ashamed to say
Many nights
I have cried
Alone
From that mental pain
Why me
While others
Look upon me
Saying
They wish
They were in my shoes
But not knowing
What I been through
The sacrifices
The trials and tribulations
The lies
The broken promises
I’ll gladly share
With whom ever wants a feel
Of this struggle
The women
Claiming to be
The one for me
Telling me
To open up
They’ll hold my feelings
Close to them
Just to
Step on them
Leaving me
Broken
Into many pieces
Just for me
To run and hide
Yes
All of this
I’ve experienced
If you could look into me
I have many scars
Memories
That I can’t let go
This is me
I’ve been running
For a very long time
On uneven ground
Tripping
And falling
Along this road
I’m traveling on
But….
I get back up
Though I feel
Low at times
I still
Never surrender
I still
Have my mouth to feed
But most importantly
I still
Want to live
And experience
The hardships
That’s up ahead of me
Because….
Without the difficulties
And lonely nights
How could I ever enjoy
The love and happiness
That comes to me