Polytraumatic

Things have been done
Said
Things that I was ok with
At first
But still it felt weird
But it shouldn’t
Should it?
And then
It went too far

It was innocent
At first
Relatively quiet
But it started a bloom
That couldn’t be stopped
It’s vines crawling up and out
Taking over
Tearing down the house
Ripping up the street
Invading every corner

Then another came along
Suggested the same
Set it up
Put it down
Invited them in
Checked the time
Promised
Promised
It would be a good time

Let’s take it further
Get a hotel room
Meet someone there
Meet them soon
You find them
I pay for the room
It’ll be ok
But still it felt weird
But it shouldn’t
Should it?
And then
It went too far

Now there are cameras
And someone’s directing
Turn this way
Do it that way
No never mind
Wait start over
Do what I say
Do it
I say

Let’s do it again
Let’s do it my way
When I want
Won’t matter
What you say
Look who’s here
It’s time again
But I don’t want to
Do this anymore
I don’t want to
Don’t make me
Again

Now I don’t know what to call myself
I don’t know what to do
I just know
I don’t want to
Be in your poly world
Anymore
Your version
Was never mine
You forcing
Was never fine
Now you can’t make me
Anymore

Things have been done
Said
Things that I was ok with
At first
But still it felt weird
But it shouldn’t
Should it?
And then
It went too far