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Aftercare When He Doesn't Care
after a long-awaited play session
artisan pain
sourced from his diabolical imagination
his arsenal of implements
his oh-so-strong hands
it's lonely coming down
you remind yourself why you chose this
why you keep choosing this:
it makes you feel alive
it's exciting
it's challenging
it's attention from him
something you crave
completely
you get to have a whole evening of it
and then suddenly
it stops
you're left dazed
reddened
bruised
on a high
that's good
you feel...happy!
but you also feel alone
deserted
parched
The aftercare he provides
is like tepid iced tea
unsweetened
in a six ounce paper cup
you savor what there is of it
knowing there won't be more
of course what you want
is icy refreshment
brisk tea
cold as an invigorating wave
indulgent sugar
tangy lemon
tracing his initals
on the cold slick condensation
of the smooth tall glass
infatuated
thirsty for more
dream on
hold tight to that paper cup
it's more than he used to give you
which is to say
nothing at all
you're fun for him to play with
but when he's sated
and relaxed from your loving footrub
you are like room service dishes
he sets outside his door
as he settles in
for a contended night's sleep
aftercare when he doesn't care
is the touch that doesn't heal
the thought that doesn't count
the timer that doesn't ring
or need to
a hug from a mannequin
the kiss you'll never get
the call that's too much effort
that warm special feeling
that you are
just maybe
the 47th
most important person
in his life
because of the long drive
he allows you to spend the night
you should be gone
shortly after sunrise
he's too polite to say that
and also too kind
but it's obvious
you've done
what you were there to do
now he wants to start his day
without you
maybe you should just leave now
willing yourself to not cry
navigating a bumpy dirt road by moonlight
making it to the highway of promise
your bad night vision
blurring the on ramp
driving as fast as you can
astigmatism making stars
of oncoming cars
maybe you'll find a motel
some unlikely place
off an unknown exit
that will feel like home
you stop at a Circle K
fill a large cup with ice
dispense diet coke
enjoying the sound of the flow
anticipating the cold
fake sweet liquid
you get back onto the highway
temporarily mollified
crank up the radio
Radar Love!
pick up the full heavy beverage
of cold sweet everything
jam a straw into the punctured lid
and joke to yourself
to just suck it up
artisan pain
sourced from his diabolical imagination
his arsenal of implements
his oh-so-strong hands
it's lonely coming down
you remind yourself why you chose this
why you keep choosing this:
it makes you feel alive
it's exciting
it's challenging
it's attention from him
something you crave
completely
you get to have a whole evening of it
and then suddenly
it stops
you're left dazed
reddened
bruised
on a high
that's good
you feel...happy!
but you also feel alone
deserted
parched
The aftercare he provides
is like tepid iced tea
unsweetened
in a six ounce paper cup
you savor what there is of it
knowing there won't be more
of course what you want
is icy refreshment
brisk tea
cold as an invigorating wave
indulgent sugar
tangy lemon
tracing his initals
on the cold slick condensation
of the smooth tall glass
infatuated
thirsty for more
dream on
hold tight to that paper cup
it's more than he used to give you
which is to say
nothing at all
you're fun for him to play with
but when he's sated
and relaxed from your loving footrub
you are like room service dishes
he sets outside his door
as he settles in
for a contended night's sleep
aftercare when he doesn't care
is the touch that doesn't heal
the thought that doesn't count
the timer that doesn't ring
or need to
a hug from a mannequin
the kiss you'll never get
the call that's too much effort
that warm special feeling
that you are
just maybe
the 47th
most important person
in his life
because of the long drive
he allows you to spend the night
you should be gone
shortly after sunrise
he's too polite to say that
and also too kind
but it's obvious
you've done
what you were there to do
now he wants to start his day
without you
maybe you should just leave now
willing yourself to not cry
navigating a bumpy dirt road by moonlight
making it to the highway of promise
your bad night vision
blurring the on ramp
driving as fast as you can
astigmatism making stars
of oncoming cars
maybe you'll find a motel
some unlikely place
off an unknown exit
that will feel like home
you stop at a Circle K
fill a large cup with ice
dispense diet coke
enjoying the sound of the flow
anticipating the cold
fake sweet liquid
you get back onto the highway
temporarily mollified
crank up the radio
Radar Love!
pick up the full heavy beverage
of cold sweet everything
jam a straw into the punctured lid
and joke to yourself
to just suck it up
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