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Imposter syndrome
Sometimes I feel like
there are cool things
happening around me
but I'm not part of that scene
I stand apart
one half wanting
that elusive foot in the door
the other telling me
it's some other place
for other people
and I should stay
in my lane
wherever my lane is
And yet I'm discontent
with the lane on the sidelines
I'm itching for more meaning
and purpose
I just don't yet have the courage
to walk up to that door
let alone open it
and say "hello world
this is me"
© Indie Adams 2022
there are cool things
happening around me
but I'm not part of that scene
I stand apart
one half wanting
that elusive foot in the door
the other telling me
it's some other place
for other people
and I should stay
in my lane
wherever my lane is
And yet I'm discontent
with the lane on the sidelines
I'm itching for more meaning
and purpose
I just don't yet have the courage
to walk up to that door
let alone open it
and say "hello world
this is me"
© Indie Adams 2022
Published 22nd Mar 2022
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22nd Mar 2022 11:06am
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22nd Mar 2022 12:22pm
whenever i read a poem of yours i've always admired the realism and honesty in your words, sometimes i've even found hairs raising up on my arms, i actually think you're one of the coolest writers on here almost to the point i fear leaving a comment on an awesome piece i've read at the best of times so i leave quietly with a like 😅
in regards to this poem i felt how torn inbetween people can be while reading this, how the fear of missing out on things around ourselves is always a constant niggle in the back of the mind while lingering in a limbo not knowing what to do or what the next move should be, i guess the right way is always the hardest way at the best of times too
thank you for being here because this is absolutely awesome and i'm keeping it 😊
-ethan
in regards to this poem i felt how torn inbetween people can be while reading this, how the fear of missing out on things around ourselves is always a constant niggle in the back of the mind while lingering in a limbo not knowing what to do or what the next move should be, i guess the right way is always the hardest way at the best of times too
thank you for being here because this is absolutely awesome and i'm keeping it 😊
-ethan
22nd Mar 2022 9:36pm
Thank you for the lovely comment Ethan. Please don't be afraid to comment. It means a lot when people do. I'm not scary, I promise.
22nd Mar 2022 6:18pm
I call this "Star Wars Bar Syndrome." Something broke loose and somehow I didn't get the memo.
Then I figured out that there was always a trillion things going on and I had always been missing most of it. And then it hit me that I had gotten used to the desert of the real, that sublime reality that once the new had worn off had turned into the same old same.
The truth was that personal satisfaction makes you the richest person in the world.
And I had conquered everything but myself...the undiscovered country was within.
And you, my friend, are actually one of the super rich. Coffee and a snack...and good conversation have become the holy grail.
Think of all the people are dying from a lack of simply that....your overflow....of just a cup of real conversation.
Prove that I'm wrong....you might be the most interesting thing within a 1000 galaxies.
Then I figured out that there was always a trillion things going on and I had always been missing most of it. And then it hit me that I had gotten used to the desert of the real, that sublime reality that once the new had worn off had turned into the same old same.
The truth was that personal satisfaction makes you the richest person in the world.
And I had conquered everything but myself...the undiscovered country was within.
And you, my friend, are actually one of the super rich. Coffee and a snack...and good conversation have become the holy grail.
Think of all the people are dying from a lack of simply that....your overflow....of just a cup of real conversation.
Prove that I'm wrong....you might be the most interesting thing within a 1000 galaxies.
22nd Mar 2022 9:39pm
Lol, thank you very much RT. Sometimes I feel starved of real conversations. Late night philosophical discussions seemed so much easier and common when I was younger.
The years have made me cynical, but you guys make me smile and keep me grounded when the world feels hopeless. Thank you.
The years have made me cynical, but you guys make me smile and keep me grounded when the world feels hopeless. Thank you.
22nd Mar 2022 9:51pm
You know where to find me. I feel the same way. I've had plenty of bonfires all by myself....and the stars.
28th Mar 2022 2:37am
I guess we live too far apart to hang out together. Because I'd definitely break this mold of you, with you!
I will save you the long comment, but...
Shyness, insecurity, etc is always secretly ready to break free. I know well. Just one day, step out. And you will then wonder why you waited so long.
You'd be surprised how accepting most of the world is. They're all just human too.
I feel your words, deeply.
I will save you the long comment, but...
Shyness, insecurity, etc is always secretly ready to break free. I know well. Just one day, step out. And you will then wonder why you waited so long.
You'd be surprised how accepting most of the world is. They're all just human too.
I feel your words, deeply.
Thank you 😊 I know the fear is all in my head but that doesn't stop it feeling tangible. Performing has helped me step out of myself, but courtesy of covid I haven't been able to do that in a long time.
