I am Not the One

“I am Not the One”
 
I was your first, but I won’t be your last.
Someday, you will have your own past
Of friends who came and friends who went,
And friends you’ll swear God Himself has sent.
But I am not the one…I am just a sign on the road
Where you are heading to the gifts you are owed.
 
Someday, you’ll look back at me, and will have learned
That love is not something that can be earned.
Sometimes, your love isn’t going to be enough.
And it’s sad because you are so worthy of love,
But I am not the one…I am just a sign of what will be
And when you look at him, I pray you’ll remember me
And thank God for the prayers He does not answer.
I don’t want to make you cry: But it always gets better.
 
Sometimes your love is not enough to make someone stay
But sometimes if you look the other way
You’ll see the far-off country where only you may enter
And whose trees offer you such fruits and such shelter
From the sun of one who never really knew you,
But no-one is going to come to your rescue
I am not the one…I am just a sign of times that serve
As a prelude to the love that you deserve.
 
And when I see the way you long to be mine
I love you in a way that love cannot define—
But its not enough, it’s just not enough
And I’m sorry…I’m sorry it’s not enough.
But I am not the one…I am just a sign of he
Who is standing somewhere right behind me,
Blocked from the light so that you cannot see.
I am not the one…I am just a sign of all the things that die
And I cannot tell you why
But it’s just not enough…you’re an angel—play your strings
And your song will help you find your wings.
 
© 2022 Marten Hoyle