Hope returns

When you are blinded you will see the most
When we are lost is when we find what we needed
I am the change i fall but. Still land on my feet
Im in need of nothing
So i dont dwell in disappointment
for i have no epectations
want no desired outcomes
then nothing is insurmountable i can and will
Survive  
Lifes determination to have me end my life
Only finds me sun shining on my face and some times
I am angered by my inability to be successful
But i am brought to a new birth which should not be
And starting from a toddler mentally and gaining
The ability to just be coherant experiencing slowly
My reality
In solitude and with slow progress it cant happen
Quickly enough for me im batteling the saddness anger
And hurt  i realize as i struggle  
That my battle here isnt nothing
Ive been through cognitivly harder days than this
And im still standin even when im sittin on my ass
Or fallin on my head life isnt all ugly there are moments
Of great accomplishment great moments of pride and joy
And again i will get through this i will survive
Im still standin sittin on my ass or falling on my head
Im still breatheing
Im still trying im still lm alive and clearly im not dieing
So im still standing my bones have been broken
Ive been laid out flat but unfortunately mentally im
Still standin
Somehow through complete helplessness
we grow come to him as trusting as children
I dont like to use the sheperd metaphor for i aint
Nobodies sheep  he gave us the ability to learn
So wed question what people said so he didnt
Want us to follow blindly he wanted us to seek him because
We saw eyes wide open minds ready to believe
Hearts open to recieve him  faith he will deliver blind trust
When you feel punished just remember you learn
And above all you cAnt walk before you crawl
SittinOn my ass or fallin on my head im still stAndin
If you ask you will recieve  if you blindly follow he will lead
And this too shall pass and you will survive
Sitting on my ass or fallin on my head  im still standin
In him all things are possible all he asks is just believe
This life can take anything from us but it cant take our
Thoughts dont lend it your mind you will survive


I must add i dont know where this came from
But i felt truly hopeful it was my son my light