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Standing At The Crossroad

Iím not sure how we got here
Though maybe I just donít want to know
While weíre standing at this crossroad, so dark
Not even the stars can light the way back
To better days and better ways
Before I understood what it truly means
To be alone

And itís not the loneliness that kills me
Itís the fear that it will never get better
And the sad fact that I have no one to talk to
When my thoughts slip and I ponder
What it would be like to let go
And dissolve into the darkness
Of the other side

Cyclic thoughts that drive me mad
Wondering, what is wrong with me?
Because maybe, just maybeÖ
Itís not me thatís wrong
And if so, why canít I seem to remedy
The emptiness that threatens
To punch a hole straight through me

And I donít want to be alone
Nor live my life in fear
Where Iíll eventually and inevitably
Take a razor to my skin
And down the poison
With a special dose of sleeping pills
In the misguided effort to find some peace
And end this pain

Iím not sure how we got here
Though maybe I just donít want to know
While weíre standing at this crossroad, so dark
Not even the stars can light the way back
To better days and better ways
Before I understood what it truly means
To be alone

© Indie Adams 2012
Indie
Written by Indie (Miss Indie)
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