Defined reality

Your reality may be different from mine. My reality changes in abstract ways and does not bend to
natural laws and physics. Yours might change because of politics, religion, war or because of the
ripples in societies vast ocean of people. Mine does not. It can bend and break, it can stretch and
contract. It can turn left, right, up and down again. It can change every hour, it can stay static for days
or even weeks. But it’s never the same, while being placed in the same universe it started in. In this
reality I am god, in this reality I am everything. While also being nothing and a nobody. Sometimes it
changes because I want it too, sometimes it changes completely at random, in an instant and I’m
lost.

Why does that happen? Why does no one else experience this kind of reality? To be clear, It can be
beautiful and majestic. It can be painful and traumatizing. But it is my reality. Does anyone else have
the same experience with this sort of thing? I have not found a person with similar symptoms (if you
can describe it like that). Sometimes it just feels like it’s all delusions and / or hallucinations. Webs
spun by a damaged brain and mind. Nothing seems real until proven otherwise. It happens way to
often to be honest. And no I’m not using drugs or alcohol. When I tried that it only got worse. Even
the drugs prescribed by the doctors had more negative effects than positive ones. I’m at a loss.