Sickness

For the first time in my life,
I am actually afraid to die.

I’ve gone from laying in bed everyday for
the last two months.
Now, a hospital.
Cold. Overcrowded.
Frightened and ashamed.
Ashamed is the odd feeling.
I avoid making eye contact, so that
Nobody knows how sick I actually am.

My legs are starting to become paralyzed.
For being only 27, this is a very hard thing to
Wrap your mind around.
I’m just another statistic for this global pandemic.

I had a near death experience that has
just given me the biggest wake up call.

I can’t slip away just yet.
I’ll hold on as long as I can.