"heaven/hell"

        
       
       
   2 sides of the same coin; 2 wings on the same bird; experienced separately or simultaneously; on earth....    
but maybe there's something beyond mortal minds' eyes;        
       
       
I don't want to live forever; I do want to "die"-though personally-it's never 100% processed in my mind; despite any inner/outter mental battles-peace is one's "battle cry"        
       
       
I agree; this place seems nothing short of a series of tests; I never filled out an application for this; I would have rather not existed to be 100% honest;        
       
       
 and yes.... this does feel like a war on the mind-from the moment one opens one's eyes or even while one's in the dream state there's a test....        
       
       
it further effects one's life; it's as if one's mind is programmed to stay away from the mass majority outside-outside of the virtual realm where there's an illusion of or seldom human connection....        
       
       
it's like a voice saying-just stay secluded up until I die; truly insane but.... it takes "nothing much" to feel/be dehumanized in this world