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i might need to let her go...

I have this feeling of dread!
I am sitting here on the floor by my bed,
I’m supposed to be doing my homework but,
Decided to do this instead.

You see, my friend called me today,
She froze my heart,
You that feeling, the one like an icicle thread?
Waving a net, a net of dread.

I’m sitting here in the semi darkness because of the chill in her voice
Something happened, what I don’t know.
 She won’t tell me and that’s her choice.
But she doesn’t know, she doesn’t know…
I’ve been down this road before.
I’ve had friends, friends just like her before.

It starts out with a conversation, a phone call, a hug, a connection.
We talk more and more until we become good friends in my opinion.
But then I find out that things are broken.

You see, every friend I’ve had has used me or abused me or taken advantage of me in some way,
Doesn’t matter who, it always ends the same way anyway.

Something happens, than things are not what they seem,
It always happens with a familiar sent in the air’s current or wind,
It happens in early winter or just after that late, late spring.
I can’t take it anymore, not again,
I can’t have my soul crushed or have it cave in,
I’ve barely got over that last one, can I afford to let it cave in??

Tonight, when I take my limping dog out,
I’ll see those same particular clouds,
Their this dark, dark blue,
With this very particular hue,
They will be big, like they are now,
With that faint faint smell of disastrous tar.

I’ll shed a tear for sure,
Remember those friends from before,
Who used me without a care to my soul,
I’ll remember those friends I had to let go.

This is why I need to know;
Why the sudden change in her tone??!
I need to know, I need to know,
Or I might just have to let her go…
Written by ilana
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