Delivered

Lost inside myself
Defeated is all i feel
I scramble to my knees i kneel
I fall on my face seeking refuge
To admit i needed this i refuse
Gone without  purpose i need something
Either to shock me or shake me
But father just dont forsake me
I in self loatheing forget the beautiful mind
They wAnt too much from me
I cant paint a more magnificent me
No art that leaves breathless
I am what i am  believing  in
Myself bring me to earth and tear me to heaven
In my exsistence a lonley place in a room full
My laughter sounds hollow even to my own ears