Deeper In

I just got myself
back on the shore...
My heart pounding
my body is sore.

Just trying to catch
my breath again...
Coughing and gasping
to get air in.

So happy to feel
earth on my skin...
No longer wanting
to fight or swim.

Somehow able
to pull myself in...
Not ready to jump
back in again.

You sat down beside
me on the shore...
Just as a friend and
nothing more.

Warm sunlight shining
where hope was dim...
Who knew what
was about to begin?

Shared all heartbreak
and tearful pain...
Speaking of love and
loss unrestrained.

Not wanting to let
go of the past...
Way too early,
so quick and too fast

You coaxed me
back in the water...
Though I fought;
you fought harder.

At first we stayed
near the shore...
Playing in the surf
and nothing more.

You slowly pulled
me deeper in...
The surf pounding
upon my skin.

Unrelenting not
seeing an end...
Wave after wave
so much deeper in.

Not knowing which
way was up or down...
No air to breathe..
I thought I would drown.

You held on tightly
with both hands...
Pulling me deeper
with all your plans.

I tried so hard to
get us to shore...
I wanted less but
you needed more.

During this struggle
truth came to me...
She who left was
my true destiny.

I let you go and
swam for the shore...
I felt for you but
I loved her more.

Each day... I am
pulled deeper in..
Into a love that
has been born again.