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What if I fail?
I've got everything planned out.
I put the rest of my life into a to-do list.
I've got this, without a doubt,
All I've got to do is persist.
I just have to get a degree,
and choose between careers.
And then that'll be the key,
to dismissing all my fears.
I just have to make friends,
just have to get a life.
And who knows, by the time it ends,
I might just have a wife.
If it works, I can die with a smile.
I won't suffer in sadness and fear.
I might even want to stay around a while,
I might fear death as he draws near.
But what if I fail?
What if I'm not enough?
What do I do when my life starts to derail?
What if I give up 'cause trying is too tough?
What if I spend the rest of my life afraid?
What if I spend all my nights in tears,
haunted my the mistakes I've made?
And slowly being eaten alive by my fears?
What if I fail?
I put the rest of my life into a to-do list.
I've got this, without a doubt,
All I've got to do is persist.
I just have to get a degree,
and choose between careers.
And then that'll be the key,
to dismissing all my fears.
I just have to make friends,
just have to get a life.
And who knows, by the time it ends,
I might just have a wife.
If it works, I can die with a smile.
I won't suffer in sadness and fear.
I might even want to stay around a while,
I might fear death as he draws near.
But what if I fail?
What if I'm not enough?
What do I do when my life starts to derail?
What if I give up 'cause trying is too tough?
What if I spend the rest of my life afraid?
What if I spend all my nights in tears,
haunted my the mistakes I've made?
And slowly being eaten alive by my fears?
What if I fail?
Published 11th Dec 2021
Author's Note
Recently finished high school and this was just a way to put all my fears into words
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13th Dec 2021 2:43am
Difficult questions, difficult times. if I might suggest: look for work, for a trade, for whatever it is that YOU like, not something that this person or that other person said you should-must do. Like the rest of us you will fail at something. You are human. But you will have the strenght to get up again. Only those who sit on their behind and do nothing never fail.
13th Dec 2021 8:02am
I found out today that I might have a job next year, but mostly I am going to try and get to therapy and work out some of my problems before I start studying. And I know that failure cannot be avoided but it still scares me. Thanks for the kind words :)
18th Dec 2021 8:51pm
