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Chained
I long for the days and nights when I will not feel like this, like I have to be both;
Mother and Child, Sister and Mentor.
There is a tired so deep inside of me that it has spread its way down to my bones
and it is eating its way through my skin, demanding to be seen and heard.
You have left me here, bound and chained inside of this fucking house,
Forced to take care of a child who is not mine; but is at the same time.
I wish and ache for the days when I will not feel the weight of the world sitting upon my chest, when I will not feel it resting on top of my lungs like a heavy boulder.
I didn't ask for this, any of it; You left me here all alone, all alone to take care of a kid that wasn't mine.
And it is killing me, slowly eating me from the inside out.
I am disappearing right before my own eyes; and it is all because of you.
Because of you, I am this way. Bound and Chained,
Doomed to live a life of motherhood that I never asked for.
Mother and Child, Sister and Mentor.
There is a tired so deep inside of me that it has spread its way down to my bones
and it is eating its way through my skin, demanding to be seen and heard.
You have left me here, bound and chained inside of this fucking house,
Forced to take care of a child who is not mine; but is at the same time.
I wish and ache for the days when I will not feel the weight of the world sitting upon my chest, when I will not feel it resting on top of my lungs like a heavy boulder.
I didn't ask for this, any of it; You left me here all alone, all alone to take care of a kid that wasn't mine.
And it is killing me, slowly eating me from the inside out.
I am disappearing right before my own eyes; and it is all because of you.
Because of you, I am this way. Bound and Chained,
Doomed to live a life of motherhood that I never asked for.
Published 11th Dec 2021
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11th Dec 2021 8:11am
Dear FA,
I found myself drawn in with the intensity of pain and loss of self you’ve portrayed within this poem. The subject matter is a bit difficult in which to make a comment but the sense of loss in oneself is very powerful and relatable when I’ve been in situations feeling minimized.
H🌷
I found myself drawn in with the intensity of pain and loss of self you’ve portrayed within this poem. The subject matter is a bit difficult in which to make a comment but the sense of loss in oneself is very powerful and relatable when I’ve been in situations feeling minimized.
H🌷
23rd Dec 2021 12:48pm
To be robbed of your childhood, with such responsibility forced upon you, I can only imagine the weight of such burden, but you pen it powerfully. As a teen, my partner had to raise her nephew for many years, sacrificing her own education and independence to do so. I pray for you to find the support you need to find fulfillment from this life you were dealt 💙
