I long for the days and nights when I will not feel like this, like I have to be both;
Mother and Child, Sister and Mentor.
There is a tired so deep inside of me that it has spread its way down to my bones
and it is eating its way through my skin, demanding to be seen and heard.
You have left me here, bound and chained inside of this fucking house,
Forced to take care of a child who is not mine; but is at the same time.
I wish and ache for the days when I will not feel the weight of the world sitting upon my chest, when I will not feel it resting on top of my lungs like a heavy boulder.
I didn't ask for this, any of it; You left me here all alone, all alone to take care of a kid that wasn't mine.
And it is killing me, slowly eating me from the inside out.
I am disappearing right before my own eyes; and it is all because of you.
Because of you, I am this way. Bound and Chained,
Doomed to live a life of motherhood that I never asked for.