Nothing Is There

terrrrrrhh  iiiiii tttTr ied                                 tried.  
                                                        Tried.
       tried.
Tr i e d  to Stroke My neck Like i'm a different Personnn
b u t,
NO Amount of Comfort will Ebb Away THIs DE S PAI R(rrahh).
i Want  to L o o k in the Mirror See A DIFFernt Person
But (uh) NO Amount of Change Will ReaRange What IS THERe(rrr). (heha)
as long as i've been d..dr..ah DREAming of L O Vvv e.
The Idea  if I Gave it I WOULD REceive as M Uuu  C  H.
Apparently,
i thought i did,
BUT i DID NOT GIVE ENOUuuGH!
OR MAYbe!
THAT SHIT JUSt, just , just
Doesn't exist for someone like This,
Don't Wanna say that it's me,
B  UuuTtt... (he,heheha)
It Kind of Is(ssss)ohh
IT's,  
The,  
Type,
Of,  
Thing,
That,
i(ahh),
Say,
TO,
MAKE,
mY,
SELF,
SHED,
TEeeaarss(uuhhh).
Inflected Inwards, and uh,
I'M DROWNING MYSELLLFfff!(hoo)
In An OCEAN THat MELTSs!(heh)
...ALL NOTION OF HELP
                   ALL NOTION OF self!
                                     ALL NOTION OF self! *gasp
I'M DROWNING MYSELFff!!
IN AN OCEAN OF HELL.
                                In        A n    o  C   Ean   T  h at    m   el t s
       A    l   l       n o    tio n      o f      h e    l    p  
a   l         l                 n     o   t   i       o n           o   f             s          
                                                                                          e   l
                                                                                              f (urrghg )                 .