#1

Believe me,
I won’t ease into
the ending
you’ll have me
screaming,
internally dreaming
of riding unicorns

but outside of me,
I will be a bitch to
this beast
go down
fighting, write
stanzas with my
ashes,
snort lines
digest rhymes
Into smoky Oh’s
that float from
my mouth
into the ether
that I’ve been
benched from
so it feels

that’s how I get in

A fruitful winter
for most is
an earth deeply
frozen so
neighbours
can’t eat

Drunk on grief
and bitterness
helped me sleep
though this time
no
I won’t go