The Forgotten Person

Wearing it;
Heavily
Misery
Product of circumstance
Draped over shoulder
Worn and ruined
And it never passed

Byproduct of struggle;
Substances
Abuse
So you closed your eyes
Rolled with
Continued the use

Raped in a treehouse at twelve.
Carried the anchor in silence.
Until it repeated with a friend...
It's where i imagine the guilt began,
And it never end

So much that i don it
The burden your lies have graced
Without a face
It forced me honest

I don't think I've ever grew...
And i don't think you want to know
If you only knew

Preyed on at sixteen by thirty
Pregnant, the family decided dirty
that your decision was made for you
It left you haunted
Sometimes i wonder if the baby won the lottery-
I wasn't adopted

You found an escape in focus
Then came college
Eventually i was born
About a decade later you lost it

Career job lost to bad decisions
Embezzled to survive
For me just the beginning

No explanation
Just one day you left and went away

No explanation
What's there to say?
Selfish thoughts how my life changed

They stuck you in a box
Where a fragile mind rebroke
It's never been the same

You closed your own lock
Alcohol to cope
It left us both deranged

The world forgets people like us
And who am i to blame?

But yet i do
I try not to
I too wear silent pain

I wear the burden
To as unburden
Day after day

Trying to forget
Of what's came and went
No words, so much to say

It's only you
That i can blame
For my intelligence
You built the blocks
Of my mental foundation
Cornerstone hell of it

So much so
That i understand it all

And i can't blame you
For not being strong enough
To survive your fall

It's not aloud
It's not allowed
That i say I'm proud

Of how much worse
This family curse
Could've been
If not for your fought trials

I just came here because i guess,
I've gotten emotional today.
I came to say that i don't blame you anymore for losing my way

I followed cope
And wish i never left
Sometimes i wish death
To get it off my chest

I look around at the world
It's only misery
And here i am to write my words
What's gotten into me?

And here i am
And here i am
What's gotten into me?

And here i am
And there i was
We're only hindering

My life is surrounded
By suppliers
By providers
Of liars

But goddamn
You molded a strong man
And we're survivors