Never again

Today was the first time in a long time that I was truly afraid of you; and I hated every single fucking second of it.
You ran at me and I couldn’t help but scream, and that’s when I saw it lingering inside of your eyes; the rage.

Today was one of the first days my heart has ever broken for my little sister, because she is becoming just like me.
Today won’t be the first occurrence with you, but it will be the most memorable.
The first day you planted a seed so dark and fear filled that she will now jump every time you slam something.
You have changed her forever.

Today you have broken my heart for the last time, you have broken me too much, and I am shattered.
I refuse to sit here in this house I do not love with a parent who is not really a parent at all anymore,
I refuse to be broken and turned into the scarred 12 year old version of myself.
Now now, not ever.

Never again.