No Better Place (or why i haven’t killed myself)

I’M ALIVE
because i’m not a believer

Faith is a contemptible word

relying on Faith is
someone giving up control
over what they believe

if i was religious
and truly
100% honestly
believed in an afterlife

that there is a heaven
that after death we go to
‘a better place’

then

i wouldn’t be reading this

i would

take a large dose
of some good drugs

or
chug-a-lug a bottle of the best whiskey

or
blow my  brains out

(with a weapon secured by my second amendment rights)

I’M ALIVE
because i’m not a believer

if you

were religious
and truly
100% honestly
believed in an Afterlife

that
there is a Heaven

that
after death there is
‘A Better Place’

(if you Really Believe and you really love them)

why wouldn’t you send
your loved ones
to that ‘Better Place’?

Because

BELIEF IS A LIE!

(crap you tell yourself to make you feel better)

I’M ALIVE
because i’m not a believer

if there were
True Believers
wouldn’t they already in that ‘better place’

rhetorical question
why don’t more people kill themselves?

especially

the
poor

the
oppressed

the
malnourished

those
with chronic disease

those
in constant pain

the
enslaved

the
abused

Because

although they Claim to Believe

the harsh Truth is

they
aren’t really sure
(they’re Hedging Their Bets)

I’M ALIVE
because i’m not a believer

those who
‘Know’
things are better in the afterlife

are
full of Shit (with a capitol S)

if they
truly believed

if they
were religious
and truly
100% honestly
believed in an afterlife

they
would have
gone to that ‘better place’ a long time ago

instead

they Pretend to know
(and try to convince others)

Because

if the believers went
(to that better place)

there would be no one to
pay for

the gold
the real estate
the coverups (for the pedophiles)

But

the Vatican has it covered :

Suicide is a Sin
(even if your life is hell-on-earth)

what a fucking  cop-out!
(and brilliant financial move)

create Sins
to keep Believers in This World

putting money
in the basket every sunday

while they suffer
monday through saturday
working at jobs they hate

living with people they don’t love
or who don’t love them
(’til death do us part)

killing
(actually or figuratively)

lying
(mostly to themselves)

Convincing Themselves
some mythical figure

Forgives
their trespasses

Welcomes
them into heaven

if only they
will

endure

sacrifice

obey

I’M ALIVE
because i’m not a believer

it is
human instinct

to Search
for Meaning

when
There Is None

it is
our instinct

to Create
Meaning

when
There Is None

We Lie to ourselves

I’M ALIVE
because i’m not a believer

This Life is all we get

so
i’m not giving it up

i love my life

every dance

every kiss

every sunrise

every sunset

I’M ALIVE
because i’m not a believer

there is

Nothing

after

This Life

there is

No ‘Better Place’

than here and now
…

© 2021 Raibeart Bruis