I Can't Stand This!

What the Fuck!
You're such a Schmuck!

Don't want me to be angry
But you stare ahead blankly.

Speaking like a robot
You say you forgot.

Everything you said
When we were in bed.

You are an asshole
Blaming the alcohol.

Saying "we" for "you"
In your fake apologies.
What is even true?

I don't want to screw up your sobriety
But it's giving me anxiety.

You say you black out
I want to scream and shout.

What the hell
Can't you tell?

I'm in love with you
I thought you were too.

Now you treat me like a stranger
And I'm reeling with anger.

The hurt, the pain
This feels insane.

We shared so many moments
Didn't know you were under the influence.

I feel like a damn fool
You tell me not to.
That I didn't know how to handle you drunk.

I want to hate you but I can't.
I want to yell and scream but I won't.

I want you to get sober my love.