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I lost

I often feel as if I am trying to remake the relationships I've lost.
I'm so desperate for the feeling of comfort provided by a world unchanging.
But my world has changed. The world often does that. Now that I am left alone and craving something to fill the lonely cavern inside, I rush to make friends. I push too fast, and when they don't react the way I decided, I pull so far away that I can't even remember their names. I crave the past, but the past can't be replicated. I often find myself daydreaming, wondering what these past years would've been like if I hadn't moved. If I was still able to see my friends in the hallway, still fussing with my teachers, sleeping in math class. I still struggle to stay awake, but not because I'm tired. I struggle to stay in the real world when my dreams are so perfect. They are like a little version of heaven. One where I don't have to remake everything I've lost.
Written by Koulouri
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