i hate running into you

I had a breakdown yesterday
After i saw you the tears i couldn't contain
You asked if i wanted to stay
Of course i did, but my composure wouldn't maintain
So i laughed it off as usual instead
Told you i was still a busy woman
Pretending i had anothers bed
confirming the denial I've proven

I miss you so fucking much
i still haven't moved on, cant tell you that
So my charade will continue as such
When i see you ill  have to imagine you were the rat
Even though im the one who ended it
I was so close to you it scared me
It was wrong of me to involve you in all my shit
I think of things now and you might have set me free

But now its to late
you no longer love who i am
The hate i let inside me create
I understand if u wish i were damned
Because i broke both our hearts
i wouldn't let myself be loved by you
Something i knew from the very start
i know now what i want we can never agian do