Into the Dark

Thought of parking my car to the side,
but no room.
Would have had to do it after work,
sometime after midnight, very soon.
Hopefully no cops would be guarding
my only way to kill the pain
(to kill the pain).
 
From my house to that overpass,
it won't be far.
Don't have a gun,
just some time
before I need to go
(need to go)
permanently
into the dark.
 
Hopefully nobody notices my  
dried tears.
"Are you okay?"
Oh damn,
my supervisor knows.
But thankfully he don't know
the whole thing,
the reason why J no longer  
lying by my side.
 
Please, please
don't notice
these dried tears,
but if Cody knows,
who else knows?
Really knows?
 
Really knows  
that on this overpass tonight,
I'm gonna spread my wings and fly
 
Into this place I go,
permanently into the dark.
 
Oh how I cry,
oh how I wanted it to not to end this way.
Just wanted a boy to take me away
from this tormented place.
 
But this room in this home of 23 years
is getting too small for these thoughts.
 
He don't love me,
nobody love me  
the way I wanted him to love me.
 
Into this dark,
permanently I go.
 
Walking there
like a zombie
One foot
in front of the other,
Can't run,
it's my resignation
into the dark
this time for good.
 
But it's all in my head,
it's just in my head!
 
It's just in my head.
Lights click off there,
and permanently I go
into the dark.