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STUCK SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN (2-26-2010, 10:30am, Palm Springs, California)
so far away from
living
my truest bliss
yet still relatively happy
i guess
though not quite
fully content
here in my
present state
of personal being
stuck somewhere
not clearly discernible
in between
worlds of it
and this one here
im currently living in
of such overly complicated
imbalanced struggle
and leisure
centrifugally thrown
off center
temporarily knocked off
my optimal
consciously intended course
where time both seems
to simultaneously
slowly crawl
and race away
as well
where i
in my increasingly
accelerated
inevitable leaving
still strive
ironically as ever
to seek at times
to succeed
yet struggle
in finding ever deeper
meaning
ever truer wisdom
through indulging in
as many simple pleasures
as i can
each day
in my ongoing
open lifes
continued
spontaneous unfolding
in nature
in self
in all life
and being
in this
ever increasingly
mad crazy
long suffering
self destructive
hyper volatile
yet still
most wondrously
beautiful
mysterious
of worlds
yet the greatest realization
is that its in
the collective greater sum
of all these things
combined
in unity as one
within the wholeness
of them all
in which my greatest
life lessons are learned
and come equally
through my
losses and gains
my victories and defeats
my hardships
suffering
and joys
just as they
also do
from and through
all my
consequential
experiential
transcendent growth
gleaned and reaped
from all the
hard learned
hard earned
essential life lessons
collectively
and ultimately
accrued
throughout
my lifes ongoing
still unfolding journey
from which
this deeper realization
continues
to arise
within me
much like
some ever ripening
continuous
inner dawn
wherein true wisdom
a deeper sense
of meaning
and a clearer
inner sense of purpose
comes
in self evident
answer
in humble acceptance
in peaceful understanding
within this
soul level
depth and breadth
of innermost recognition
and knowing
of the essential
necessity
and the greater
transcendent value
of and to
it all
both for me
this
my temporal self
and all
the world
as well
but the choice
to be
aware
and then
to either
utilize
and use it
or not
as our
central compass
as a guiding
filter
in our lives
is up
to each
of us alone
but just as
we all have
abundant
access
to precious
oxygen and air
some simply
choose
to breathe
much more
deeply
more fully than most
the vital
life giving
pranic air
of our conscious
living earth
while others
still
in fact
the vast majority
of human beings
presently living
in this world
so clearly
appear to be
barely
breathing enough
to ever
consciously
awaken enough
to spawn
more than hope
in what
little time
we
as a species
and all other
life forms
along with us
here
may
or may not
still have
left to us now
especially here
at this present
most precariously
uncertain point
in our living
conscious being
as a self destructive
ego blinded
species
disastrously flailing
too long failed
misplacement
here in
and beyond
all this illusory
linear
space and time
anymore
at all
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