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I'll Save A Dance For You (repost)

 
Thinking of you
These thoughts that occupy my mind
Trying to focus
Even the sunrise is darkness
When sight is faith blind

First night back
It was all I could do
To keep my emotions to myself at work
When all I can do is think of you

It feels like fire, invisible blades
Words pour from my lips like a scar
Slinging the blood of poetry therapy
Beyond console, wishing I was where you are

I am a bleeding heart
Weeping in the rain
Storms circling
My tears perspire
But fail to relinquish the pain

In this struggle between
Honesty's lie and true faith I speak
Humbling the pride of my boasting emotion

Learning to trust in something unseen
When everything is bleak
And hope feels like swimming an ocean

Thoughts of you stuck on repeat
As I remember our last day
Leaving your bedside
And feeling guilty for leaving you that way

Just responsive enough to open your eyes
As my brothers and I said our goodbyes
I asked you to get better for us
And said I'd tell my wife that you said hi
As I broke upon departure
And I couldn't help but cry

All the thoughts that fly through my head
All things I wish I could have said
Fatalistic it seems in my mentality
Warfare between this world and a more beautiful reality

Thanking God for the days prior
Contending for the future unset
You are more than just a memory
Because you are not dead yet

Renovations of newly weds
Homemakers of inland tides
My step dad prepares a place for you
Praying in time is where your life resides

You've still got a home to build
To reap the reward
For all the heartache of former things
This is all you worked toward
Finish the house I said to him
As we go about with expectancy

That this is not the end
When everyday feels like a waiting room
Locked outside of your recovery
You've still got a wedding to attend
As we ceremony our renewed vows at the altar with our family and friends
Celebrating lovers as we live our lives
Promise me this is not where the story ends

Reception reminiscing for plans
To make another memory with you
Scheduling our designated moment to dance
Give me away, it's not my turn yet

Caught up in a son and mother romance
Despite every trial that we've been through
We have nothing to regret

I'll save a place for you
Making a reservation for our time slot
There's a place in my heart only for you
And no one will ever take your spot...
cloventongue89
Written by cloventongue89 (Nathaniel Peter)
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Author's Note
This was the 10th poem I wrote after finding out about my mother's brain cancer diagnosis and prior to her passing away. I wanted her to be at my wife and I's vow renewal ceremony since she wasn't...
This was the 10th poem I wrote after finding out about my mother's brain cancer diagnosis and prior to her passing away. I wanted her to be at my wife and I's vow renewal ceremony since she wasn't able to be there for our small wedding, Our vow renewal was our bigger and more traditional ceremony and I was looking forward to dancing with her, as events would play out that would turn into a desire in my life that has gone unfulfilled :( - I posted this poem once before but decided to repost it amidst the collection of poems that show in real time the journals of poems i wrote while my mom went through all she went through...
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