You completely destroy me-HKFiftyone

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like I never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips
And her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart
I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell, to wither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were
I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold?
All I've got left are some photos of you
And your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever, until the very end
You were everything to me and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have that choice
I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become
That you learned to love
But then you turned your back like a setting sun
If I hurt you, I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say, please believe me
And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect, not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away
So now I'm left alone to live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill, but now you're nothing but a ghost
And I still have your pictures and that letter that you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself
And that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low
And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now the pain won't subside
I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were the reason for living
How could you do such a heinous thing?
I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright
But something died, something changed
And I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up
And I drowned from within my core
And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side
And all the things that people said
I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright