Heard in grief a window opens and shuts
Woken up by this cause and effect.
Listening for a graphic display.
Another moment passes
I have no more glass classes.
Fragile still only to thrill the idea
I am not the one that needs something to smile about.
Problematic little me knows it's not true
Needing nothing anymore what a joke.
Death is surrounding my vicinity.
Why does everything have to die?
Alas the world is its own weight.
These shoulders can relate for its a heavy thing.
Raising life to end.
Losing it to no avail.
Everything leaves me.
I will not forget.
No children to conceive
Only that which others create.
I partake but the Lord says no.
Everything goes so soon.
Punished am I
My soul to take and tear asunder.
Ripped like ribbon from a present.
Its not a pleasant thing
Losing that which is loved.
Praising what we have then seeing it fleet away into the dark.
Missing lost gone forever
This cycle never ends.
I never forget what used to be there.
A gate reveals my path
Vanity once in its place.
Suffering from all the innocence fallen.
I cant have my own.
My own loving company to create
I can take in and try and try and try.
Tragedy seems to take the call and trust me it makes me ball.
I am a shattered urn
Ashes in the core.
I want nothing more
Than love to hold me like glue.
I want children to call my own.
I try to replace that human space with another race that I raise.
Why lord do you take everything away from me?
My children gone my fury little things taken before their time.
The only thing that fills that void that emptiness.
Shrapnelling my dreams with pain of loss.
System of devotion
Rationalizing I am doomed.
Trapped in this place that calls me out
Relishing in my despair.
Whoevers up there knows..
I just want family.
I just want that which to call my own.